I know of several study programs for peace & conflict studies, but I don’t know of many (or any really) that talk about unworthiness as a source of conflict.
For me, not putting these two worlds together is a big miss. It means we spend time studying a conflict, understanding it but never really resolving the wars in the world. We can even learn conflict resolution strategies and still not end the cycles of wars.
Why is that? It’s because, in my view, the last place we want to look is inside our own unworthiness. We support an economic system that privileges a small percent, why? Because we believe more money makes us more worthy.
We don’t necessarily believe in our own being as worthy. We are often trying to prove ourselves worthy, through our relationships, our job, our action in the world. Of course we cannot maintain harmony with these entities, so any disharmony brings up unworthiness, which brings up the fight. It doesn’t seem like we are fighting ourselves, it seems like we are fighting the entity that our worthiness depends on. But actually, we are very often fighting against feeling unworthy.
With judgment as our weapon, we do a very good job of protecting our unworthiness. Keeping it as our king, not realizing that it’s also ruling over us.
Which school or university will teach skills that are needed to unravel the unworthiness that has been passed down generation after generation and is weaved into our political, educational, financial system?
I don’t know, but as I’m coming more into my own light, unraveling more layers of this unworthiness, I also take more steps to build this school, or this space. The voice of unworthiness would prefer this to move at cheetah speed, but in my core there is a turtle, patiently moving along, every day putting in the inner and outer work as needed.
As we get pushed towards the edge of these current systems, we will need new ones to uphold the new world. We cannot create this world with unworthiness as our ruler, as it is now. The new world (which in many ways is already here, we just have to surrender to it) is one where every being is inherently worthy and can shine their unique light, freely and equally.
This is what I spend my life on, one turtle step at a time, and I am grateful that I don’t have to realize it on my deathbed 